Oookay, I think I found myself. I have been out of control for quite a few days, and the midday of today was just as bad as the days. I drooled on the phone with the flames of anger again and again.
Pimples are popping out one by one since I was being late to my bed every night. I hope I can sleep well tonight.
He made me feel better. I promised him not to use the word "FUCK" anymore. He doesn't want and he doesn't like me to use the vulgar words. I told him I will try. :) Thanks him for soothing me whenever I am being depressed.